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Sunday, November 23, 2008

My Dear

I have replayed the moments many times in my mind. We didn't have that many in the short years that you appeared in my life. I loved you from the first moment I saw you as so many people would have even though you were never mine. My tears have never stopped. Even now as I type these words to show how much I miss you.

I remembered the first day I saw you. You were never a stranger to me although we have never met. You lay your head on my lap as we told stories of our lifes before that day. Everyday after that, I would anticipate spending my mornings with you. Until I changed. Until my life changed and we went our seperate ways.

I cried for hours when I found out I had lost you. That we have lost you. It was too sudden for me. I had no idea you were ill though it was obvious that time had caught up with you. It has caught up with all of us. It kills me today, especially when my mind repeatedly told me to go over to see you weeks before you passed. I loved everything that you are and I am so sorry that I did not meet with you as often as i should have in those short few years.

Thank you for coming into my life. To fill my heart with warmth every second that your eyes smiled at me. I love you and I miss you whole heartedly. I will not say goodbye as I am certain that I will meet you again one day so that I can hug you once more. Till then, I will never forget you and I will remain your faithful friend, Always. Here's to you, Meg.

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Sunday, November 18, 2007

Currently Gaming
Prince of Persia: Rival Swords
By UBI Soft
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wee wee

It's sunday. And i'm bored.. Klang is at home sick. Must be the klang water.

So i blog.. I think I'm getting old. I wake up at noon. Scratch itch. Turn on comp. Whack itch. Layan klang or more like klang layan me while he's at work. Then i brush teeth and make coffee at one while staring at the kitchen floor in case a flea decides to hop onto my leg. Then watch some show I downloaded last night while having coffee and donuts. Whack at itch. Then come downstairs at two after my "after coffee" shit session. Then watch some show on tv or a dvd or a movie I downloaded while eating my favourite POST banana nut crunch and sea food cracker. Shower to stop myself from whacking itch. Then i wii on my brand new bean bag.. pausing for occasional pee and shit moments.. Scratch itch. Then at six, like clockwork I get bored of wii and I turn on Simpsons. Then Klang comes over with ice cream

and wii with me.. Klang goes home for dinner and I facebook and pacman while eating nuts and whacking itch and surf stuff to download till sleeping time. Of course he can opt to take me out dinner. But itch on my foot gets worse from the rubbing of the shoe/flip flops. So i rather stay home.

Can't say life gets any better than this

(minus the itch and scratch and results anticipation of course)

Had a big fight with my dad. Not speaking for days now. Don't really mind him not speaking to me. I like it. Less shit for me to listen and less shit for me to say back. Just waiting for him to blow is what's shitty. He keeps shit I say in his heart and when I least expect it he blows. What happened? Let's just say I answered back to everything he said and said something mean to him. I know i know.. I should show respect. But I'm sure you know I hardly find reasons to give him respect anymore. Sigh. I wish he let things go. But then again I don't let things go either. I still hold on to the "jesus wants me to be single to do god's work" thing.

I'm afraid. I'm afraid I'd end up like him. I'm afraid I'd chase away everyone and end up alone because I don't let things go. I'm afraid cause I'm beginning to like alone. I'm also afraid that if I don't get up and move on I'd end up doing nothing for the rest of my life. I want to move on! Move on so badly. From uni. From bad friends. From my childish ways. From watching re-runs on ASTRO. From dreaming. From living in Shah Alam with close minded and unbelievably ignorant ASSHOLES that mind everyone else's business but theirs. (your kids are fucked up!! care for them before others!!) I just want to work. Get money. Shift to a place where assholes won't scold me or stop me for walking out of the house with shorts or skirts. Become prettier so people would stop making fun of my mono brow (I like it

and I hate how everyone thinks I have to tweeze to be pretty) although I highly doubt I would cause I love me too much to want to change.
So, I'm mostly afraid to change and to not change. It's a Catch 22.

Since my birthday passed, it's time I put up my list of ideal bday gifts whether I got them or not. I only have five.

1. Studio ghibli box set (original not necessary)
2. A toy rose. (the big cute ones from toys 'r us)
3. Peter pan musical! (poor nana

)
4. James Morrison tickets.
4. Shoes!! When have I EVER not want shoes.

Thanx to everyone who made my birthday special. The house visits, the late supper session, the sms-es, the facebook messages and emails, my quirky cousins and my aunt who I loveeee so much. It was hard to have fun with the itch but you guys really placed a smile on my face. I love you to bits. I now know I have too much I'd never let go off.

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Sunday, October 21, 2007

Currently Reading
All the President's Men
By Bob Woodward, Carl Bernstein
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My open letter

Dear JK Rowling,

    I am not a fan of yours. I read the first two books in the harry potter series. The first one i admit was enchanting for a children's novel. The second book was utterly messy and made no sense whatsoever although it was again enchanting. The third book was just a shitty attempt at writing as you made sure hollywood could adapt it onto the big screen for a larger demographic (not just children alone). The third movie installment in the harry potter series was by far the best adaptation. I give credit to the director. Needless to say, I did not finish the third book. I tried again for the fourth book. It was about this time I realized that I'd rather spend my time re-reading Enid Blyton or Roald Dahl than waste my time any further with any of your "children's" book if I were to read a children's book. I will not comment on the fifth, sixth and whatever book of yours as I had not read it.

    I have heard many people argue on how great you are. And how great Harry is. I do not care of what they think. As I am sure they or even you would not care what I think. But today, I am shocked at what you announced. Do you really need more publicity for your movie franchise that you had to pull a stunt like this? Don't you have enough fans to fill a continent?

    I have nothing against Dumbledore being gay. I think it's a good thing since I don't give a rat's ass who he or anyone in your book fancies. I am just appalled by your lack of professionalism. I don't hear anyone outing the characters in their book six months after the book came out. If you wanted to make a statement, make it in your book. Not at the graces of your audience in a packed hall. Because now you just sound like a bitch waiting for the new movie to kick off so that you can make more money since you widen your demographics once again.

    In conclusion, I think you suck. You are a clever bitch and the world loves you. But you stink. It goes to show again that the world will buy into any bullshit if they are considered part of the crowd. Kudos!!!

Yours Sincerely,
why didn't harry's damn scar hurt
in the second book you whore???

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Monday, October 01, 2007

Currently Listening
The Reminder
By Feist
1234
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I'm back!!

Hello hello.. I'm back..

Reasons why i haven't been blogging:

1. Bad breakup. Real shiteous breakup. Not the high school kind.. Lots of emo, crying to sleep moments and crack addiction or more like potato chips (namely red rock deli's thai lime and ginger from aus.. u aussie asses better come back with some bags for me) addiction.. And alot of where i went wrong and learning or knowing who i am..

2. Uni life is sucking me dry. Advance assignment is a killer. Course coordinator (i don wan mention his name in case he googles his own name.. he has a possibility to be that self centered) screwed me up nicely.. Spent the second, third and fourth week of this sem crying and begging him like i needed his liver to survive.. Reminds me of how Locke from Lost got screwed in the ass by his dad who conned him for his liver.. Which also reminds me of how KICKASS Lost season 3 is.. Which also reminds me to make Ming watch it before i tell him what happened.. Sigh.. slow-ness....

3. Just plain LAZY..

4. Facebook... Its a disease i tell you.. What kind of a normal human being or organization would produce such unearthly addictive application. I thought youtube was bad.. With the Scrabble, Boggle, Pacman, Tetris, never ending movie quizzes, travel world IQ which i can so kick ming's ass in (although only in the category.. but thats only cause i too lazy to play europe and USA). I spend hours on it.. Wake up, facebook. Go uni, facebook. After lunch, facebook. Get home from uni, facebook. After shower, dinner and then facebook. Then sleep.. same shit everyday.. PS: I AM THE BOGGLE QUEEN!!! You mofos aint got nothing on me.. (see ben!! i african-american-fied cause of u dy)

5. Will and Grace. Only thing i'm doing when i'm not facebook-ing. I want JACK!!! I want him in my life so bad it hurts.. And i'm talking like Karen now.. hehee.. i laugh like Jack and i am bitchy like Karen... I love it!

6. My laptop dieded.. And it took me awhile to get used to my dad's laptop.. And now that i got my laptop back (thanx to ) I gotten used to my dad's and i no likey my laptop dy.. It'll grow on me.. I'm sure.. Just not yet... Not yet...

7. Needed to wait awhile till no one visits my site anymore.. Don't really want the people who used to visit here to visit here anymore.. Not that I don't like them... I just don't want what I say here to be taken seriously cause its just rambling... Or for it to be taken out of context or for it to be a way for people to gossip that I want attention.. Especially the last month or year.. Not that I care what people think.. I just need my site to be a non judgemental place for awhile till i get bitchy again... heheh... Oh and I can't move cause this site is so me la ok... If i move, there wont be another suepper duepper dy... cannot cannot... suepper remains!!

Reasons why I'm blogging again

1. I finished Will and Grace.. shitty season 6.. so i skipped to season 8.. might rethink 7... in awhile...

2. I hide from course co-ordinator though I SWEAR everytime I turn ANYWHERE I see a bald old oriental man that looks like him lurking behind some pole. And the 6 boys in Advanced are nice to me.. they think me pretty.. heehee

3. Facebook made my fingers ugly... Pacman and tetris for hours a day makes my right fingers all funky from using the up,down,left and right button only.... I must start prettify-ing myself.. Boost confidence!! No more gaming!! No more!!

4. Music has come back in my life... I have faith in the Music again!! Listen to TRAX fm in the morning... If u ignore the ocassional Metallica (ugh) and real pukish emo rock, u get awesome wake me uppers!! And i have my laptop again so music download galore!!

Till then I leave you with a tip about the John Mayer entry below at Emoben.com's request : The ben that I was bitching about in the later part of the article was not intended for emoben.. It was for Ben Kweller.. Get it straight people!!

Arrivederci!

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Monday, May 07, 2007

Currently Listening
Continuum
By John Mayer
Slow dancing in a burning room
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John Mayer.... and me....

April 7th, 2007...
Yay.. I went to John Mayer's Continuum Concert tour.. I started the day by going to Essendon DFO (Direct Factory Outlet) with my homey Ben, my man Farhad and my lover May. Let's just say it wasn't my day... However much I wanted it to be..

Cause on the tramp ride to Ghost town to get to Essendon, I caught the flu bug.. I wore a sleeveless top cause it was a hot day.. Of course i brought a cardi, it's melbourne after all.. home of unpredictable weather. But with my flu bug, the cardi wasn't enough in DFO and therefore my flu bug became a cold which became slight fever by the time dinner came.

So I didn't shop much since my flu was making me wish I was dead. We had mutton fucking awesome briyani in the city with my friend A and his friend B (I hate this A B name calling thing but u'll know why i'm using it in awhile).. hehehe I know I not suppose to eat briyani or curry or mutton when I is sick but my man Farhad say its awesome so what my man says I believe.... I was gonna go alone to the concert but then A wanted to tag along and so did his friend B. I liked A so I doubt that my "intimate" night with john mayer would be distrupted or distroyed by anything or anyone but my stupid cold. Boy was I wrong.. Cause not only did B CONSTANTLY sang throughout the night (before, during and after the concert) he also constantly played AIR GUITAR AND AIR DRUMS!!!

(I can hear May laughing)

Don't get me wrong.. I have nothing against people singing.. When there is MUSIC!! And when there is no one(especially strangers!!) around to hear your awful toneless voice and your inability to remember the PROPER lyrics... I don't want to hear what you think John Mayer should have sang about in his song "No Such Things".. He sings at the restaurant, on the walk to the tramp, on the tramp towards Vodafone arena, at Vodafone arena, when we are seated, when we are leaving, when we walking to train station, when we were on the train to Caulfield and on the bus to Clayton. But nothing is as embarrassing and as annoying as when he plays AIR GUITAR and AIR DRUMS at the SAME time during the concert.

The concert started off with opening act Ben Kweller.. I shall not waste time on THAT hack of a job that calls himself a musician who decided to bore me and everyone at the stadium to death after two of his songs. All his songs were EXACTLY the same.. and before each song he goes "I wrote this for a girl I knew" and "My wife married me here in Melbourne and this song was hers" and "I started writing this song for my baby girl who is 3 days old" .... FUCK!!! GROW some balls!! Is he even capable of writing any songs about something different besides sappy "girls who are so pretty with flowers in her hair"... I give him homework.. write a song on how a singer can bore people to death with his mindless music!! At least it's new!

And then B leans over while Ben is slowly driving me and my flu to insanity and asks me (yes he sat next to me.. AAARRGGH)

B : so.. what do u think of him?"
Me : sucks!! no guitar solo... no cool piano stylings... same shit over and over
B : oh yea... its very blues-y
Me : umm.. I really don't think it's blues..(in my head:

fucking prick comparing this shit to Blues.. he gonna die)
B : NO its IS!! (proceeds to hum famous Blues riff)
Me : You have no idea what you talking about.. (bitchy stare and turns away to avoid brain hemorrhage)

Ben went on to be boring till someone in the audience yell "WHERE'S JOHN!!!???" really loudly while he was still playing... Whoever he is, he will always be my hero..

Then after what seemed like an eternity what with my nose falling off and my eyes burning John Mayer came to please me

.. sigh.... how i wish i was in an intimate relationship with a musician who lived and breathe for making music FOR ME.. how i wish... but John Mayer no brains.. go out with skanky, stupid Jessica Simpson.. I was going to put this up earlier so I won't forget what songs he played.. but yea i forgot.. He didn't play my favourite-est song of his but he played a couple of songs me likey much much.. I love the stage backdrop and his solo for "Vultures"... Thank god B donno all his new songs so he couldn't sing it and he only AIR DRUM and AIR GUITAR-ed... sigh.... just my luck..

Even Aussie girl sitting beside me got pissed at B when he air drum with his legs cause all the chairs shake as he did it... -_- Aussie girl so happy cause I think she got proposed before concert. Cause when John Mayer played "The Heart of Life" she sang along and squealed "I love John Mayer ... " she then turns to her bf/fiance and holds up her hand with a diamond ring on it, flashes it and says "But I'm marrying you.. heheheh" I'm not making it up... and it was sweet for like 30% the other 70% it was just damn cheesy and tacky la..

So enjoy some John Mayer videos of the concert I stole from some people on Youtube cause my own video sucked cause I sit so far

what I remember JM played Gravity, 3x5, Heart of life, Waiting on the world, Vultures, I'm gonna find another you, Don't trust myself, Why georgia, No such thing, Belief, and the Ray Charles song "I don't need no doctor"..

I would definately go for his concert if he ever goes to KL (please god let it be).. Whatever it is, I loved every single dime I spend on that concert..

Especially when I drift away alone (probably high on flu meds) with just John Mayer and me... Hehe

P.s: The last clip wasn't from the concert... I just put it up cause it's my favourite song (due to personal reasons

) from the latest album... In the last vid, you can see John Mayer's very awesome cool (i'm guessing Fender strat.. but i'm dumb) guitar..

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